Since my last joural:

I am only actually 'followed' by three of you. Maybe four. And it's those 3,4 that have the respect that has kept me tethered here, well.. I've tried to remain who I once was, But I can feel something awakening, Something I like, but don't like. I see auras in a more powerful way then before, the worlds colors are crisp and burn into my mind like electric waves. The smell of anything on the air has become insanely erotic, and the smell of someones blood, the sight of crimson slowly moving across ivory flesh has caused a stirring within the very depths of who I am. I can feel it. The tethers holding me, the line between Reality, and the final dip over the edge into the dark abyss with no way out: The tethers are failing, The strings feel like they are slowly being cut, every little string bound together so tightly being stripped one, by one. 5 strings that hold one to reality: Understanding, Belief, Friendship, Love, and Hope. All are strong in my life, weak at times but not enough to deserve to be broken..

I believe I have finally lost it, Every simple touch. Fingertips runing over a brass door-knob, resting on someones flesh, or the fabric of their shirt, The feel of water running over and through my fingertips has increased feeling like I have grown hypersensitive or swallowed E. Who knows, most would run, Hide from such things. Hide from watching auras of mingled colors spring up around people, but for years I have been able to read such. Maybe it's finally come to fruition, the full understanding of what this gift/ curse is. I will finally be granted.

I've begun to hear people, not in the sense of insanity, but people that are down the hall, behind closed doors in a hospital. Someone across a resturant My hearing has become so attune I can pick out a location and hear as if standing right beside the person talking..

Perhaps this is the decent into madness? If so.. it's amazing, it's erotic.. I've come to crawl into it like a cold animal under it's owners blanket. As for the resurfacing..Heh..Perhaps I won't. We shall see at the end..

That is all

~Raven.